Keith and I learned many things at the CRM World Wide Conference. We have both been pushed and stretched. For me, I’m gaining a worldwide perspective on how God has given HIS people HIS power to go out in this world and share His goodness and love. At the conference there were people from all over the world.
One night there were over 25 languages spoken during the scripture reading. To hear God’s word spoken in so many languages opened up my eyes. I realized in that moment how narrow my worldwide perspective of how powerful God’s word was in my life. It moved me to tears to know that all these people, over 350, were in a room worshipping a God that they wanted others to know about.
It was so empowering and exciting to talk with others who have that apostolic call on their life to sale everything and become the church for HIS people. The first night there I prayed that the Lord would give me a new boldness and confidence to walk in to this new ministry sharing my heart more willingly. I tend to hold back and let Keith do the talking and preaching, and the Lord is telling me to step up and share because He wants and needs to use me.
My week at the conference was one of empowerment, but it was also one of cleansing and healing. I had a sweet friend pray over me one morning and it brought so much cleansing. I didn’t realize that I was still holding on to some fears:
- fear of people pleasing
- fear of worrying about what others will think
- fear of support raising
- fear for my children in this new ministry
I realized in that moment that if I trust the Lord, and I know that what I’m doing is HIS call on my life, what do I have to fear? He really is in CONTROL and the details are going to work out for HIS GLORY. So I walked away from this conference free and healed of my baggage. Not all of it of course, but I do have a better understanding of the Lord’s call on my life. His Spirit is in me and because of that, I have been given authority, power, and an anointing to share all that He is teaching me.
John 3:5-8 says: 5Jesus answered, “I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. 6Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit[a] gives birth to spirit. 7You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You[b] must be born again.’ 8The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”
This scripture says that EVERYONE in Christ is born of the spirit and His Spirit is like the wind, uncontrollable and unpredictable. I want to move in His spirit and be spontaneous and ready to minister to those around me so I am praying for MORE opportunities, MORE boldness, and MORE willingness to share His love with others, even if I do end up looking like a CRAZY PEELER…it will be for HIS glory!!!